Dr. B's Nurse called this morning and informed me that insurance is going to help us out with the surgery (thank goodness), so it's officially scheduled for December 15th at 10:30 a.m. After, I hung up the phone I glanced at the calendar...that's really soon! She said that we would be getting more info. tomorrow and she would call me back with my pre-op appointment times: one with Dr. B and the other with the hospital. So, it's fair to say that the ball is definitely rolling. We also decided to push back IVF until February...the IVF coordinator was worried that with my insurance changing Jan 1st that we might have to pay out of pocket for our meds, and she also wants my body to have some time to heal after surgery. I have to admit that I wasn't very excited about this....I had my heart set on January. I know, I know, "It's only a month", but for someone who has been waiting month after month after month after month....a "month" feels like eternity!!! I was really, really, really bummed and it took me a while to pull myself out of it and to get back to being "Kelly". I definitely owe my awesome in-laws an apology...they arrived the same day that we found out about all the news & changes and I tried sooo hard to be myself and not to think about it, but I struggled. It's like feeling guilty for being the one with the messed up body and frustrated because every treatment we try seems to not work out, and scared because I know that IVF is the last option.
Thank goodness, I'm back to being "ME" and I'm determined to stay positive and optimistic. There is absolutely nothing I can do to fix this infertility struggle, so I have to let go and give it all to God...easier said than done, but I am really trying and it is really helping!!!
"Don't worry about anything; instead, pray about everything; tell God your needs, and don't forget to thank Him for His answers. If you do this, you will experience God's peace, which is far more wonderful than the human mind can understand. His peace will keep your thoughts and your hearts quiet and at rest as you trust in Christ." - Philippians 4:6-7
P.S. Here's Gussers next to the Christmas Tree...so far he hasn't eaten it, peed on it, or stolen any ornaments!!! Isn't he the cutest puppy!!!
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