Black "n" Blue

On Wednesday we arrived at the Hospital at 10:00 a.m.  They took us back around 11:00.  As soon as we got back there Thomas had to help me get dressed into a gown, dorky socks, & a nerdy hair net.  Of course, right away he wanted to take a pic, but thankfully I talked him out of it....that was until the nurse came and talked Thomas right back into taking a pic and trying to convince him to post it on facebook!!!  He did take a pic, but thank goodness it didn't make a facebook appearance.   They started an IV and the anaesthesiologist came to talk with us while we waited.  Dr. B also came and talked with us for a bit.  This was the worst part...waiting....Thomas & I just kept telling each other that this is one more step closer to starting our family!!! 

A nurse came at about 12:15 to take me to the operating room.  With a kiss goodbye from Hardy, I was off.  That was one crazy feeling...walking into the operating room knowing that you are getting ready to be worked on.  The nurses helped me get on to the operating table and then I just remember a lot of people moving all around me getting things ready.  The anaesthesiologist came in and told me to pick a destination because he was about to send me on a trip...and that's the last thing I remember about the operating room.  When Dr. B finished, she went out and talked to Thomas.  She told him the my uterus looked good, and that one of my ovaries looked great, but the other one wasn't so good.  She made an extra incision to cut off adhesion's from the fallopian tube.  I guess she talked to me too and showed me pics, but I don't remember anything.  I'm looking forward to meeting with her at my post-op appointment to find out all the details.


An hour and a half later, when I came to in recovery I immediately felt like someone had shot me in the shoulder...Dr. B wasn't kidding about the weird shoulder pain!!!  For the next couple hours I just remember being kinda in and out.  They were giving me morphine for the pain, which made my skin burn and my body shake, but totally eliminated the pain.  Around 3:15 they took me into a different recovery room where I finally got to see Thomas and my mom.  Poor Thomas, didn't make it too long....he was definitely in pass out mode just looking at me and thinking about what had happened.  So, I talked him into waiting outside for me while mom and the nurses helped me get dressed.  Good thing he stepped out....one of my incisions had burst open!!!  He would have been passed out for sure!!!  Once, I was cleaned up and dressed I stood up and tried to get in the wheelchair, but couldn't make it...felt like I was going to pass out too. Mom fanned me for a while and finally, around 4:30 I was able to be wheeled to the car.  I owe Thomas and my mom a huge thank you...they were awesome....and took great care of me!!!

I guess I didn't think the pain would be as bad as it has been.  I'm very sore, black and blue, and my entire abdomen is swollen.  Wednesday I was pretty out of it, yesterday the pain was pretty bad, so I'm hoping today will be lots better.  My husband has been the greatest!  He's taking great care of me!  Once again, I don't know what I did to be blessed with such an amazing man!!!! 

Here's one of the pics he took of me while waiting...thankfully this is minus the hair net! Check out those socks!!!

Pre-Op Complete

I went this morning to meet with Dr. B and then on to the hospital.  She told me what to expect, every detail of the surgery, gave me my prescription for pain meds, and answered my questions.  It definitely made me feel better when she told me that not only is she the surgeon, but she has also been the patient for this same surgery...so, she knows exactly what it feels like and what the recovery is like.  She warned me that the worst part is the air.  During surgery she will insert air into my abdomen, to blow it up so she can see what's going on.  Before sewing me up, she will get as much of the air out, but more than likely won't be able to get all of it and therefore it goes into my bloodstream and causes shoulder pain....weird huh.  She'll meet with me right before they put me out, and as soon as she's finished she'll meet with Thomas.  She's thinking the surgery will take probably around an hour and a half - two hours.  If she needs to make decisions during surgery about removals...I signed off that Thomas can make the decision...lucky guy! 

The hospital pre-op was a bit more time consuming.  I had to answer 9,000 questions, urine sample, blood work, and then answer another 9,000 questions about my latex allergy.  I think they were more concerned about Thomas feeling comfortable than me....she told me three times that he needs to bring a jacket (so he doesn't get cold in the waiting room), a snack (because he will be very hungry) and something to read (because he will be in the waiting room for 6 hours and she doesn't want him to be bored)....unbelievable!!!

So, Wednesday it is....arrive at 10:00, surgery begins at 11:45, and approx. 4-5 hours in recovery.  I'm really more excited to know what's going on than worried.  I'll be fine...and I have Christmas to look forward to!!!

Just a Lil' Update

Dr. B's Nurse called this morning and informed me that insurance is going to help us out with the surgery (thank goodness), so it's officially scheduled for December 15th at 10:30 a.m.  After, I hung up the phone I glanced at the calendar...that's really soon!  She said that we would be getting more info. tomorrow and she would call me back with my pre-op appointment times: one with Dr. B and the other with the hospital.  So, it's fair to say that the ball is definitely rolling.  We also decided to push back IVF until February...the IVF coordinator was worried that with my insurance changing Jan 1st that we might have to pay out of pocket for our meds, and she also wants my body to have some time to heal after surgery.  I have to admit that I wasn't very excited about this....I had my heart set on January.  I know, I know, "It's only a month", but for someone who has been waiting month after month after month after month....a "month" feels like eternity!!!  I was really, really, really bummed and it took me a while to pull myself out of it and to get back to being "Kelly".  I definitely owe my awesome in-laws an apology...they arrived the same day that we found out about all the news & changes and I tried sooo hard to be myself and not to think about it, but I struggled.  It's like feeling guilty for being the one with the messed up body and frustrated because every treatment we try seems to not work out, and scared because I know that IVF is the last option. 

Thank goodness, I'm back to being "ME" and I'm determined to stay positive and optimistic.  There is absolutely nothing I can do to fix this infertility struggle, so I have to let go and give it all to God...easier said than done, but I am really trying and it is really helping!!! 

"Don't worry about anything; instead, pray about everything;   tell God your needs, and don't forget to thank Him for His answers.  If you do this, you will experience God's peace, which is far more wonderful than the human mind can understand.  His peace will keep your thoughts and your hearts quiet and at rest as you trust in Christ."   - Philippians 4:6-7

P.S. Here's Gussers next to the Christmas Tree...so far he hasn't eaten it, peed on it, or stolen any ornaments!!! Isn't he the cutest puppy!!!