Monday, May 30, 2011

Embryo Update #4

Today's update arrived and left us feeling a bit more nervous than before...she informed us that both of our lil' Peas are now grade 3 embryo's.  We were so hoping that they would hold steady as grade 4's until transfer.  So, now they have until 2:00 tomorrow afternoon to hold steady as 3's or to move back up to 4's...we are confidant that they can do it!!!  Hardy & I are trying to stay super positive as we pray for our lil' ones to grow, grow, grow!!!  We also have been praying for Dr. B....she's got the biggest, most intricate job of all tomorrow...transferring them back to me. 

Tomorrow at 8:15 am I will go see Dr. L.B for pre-transfer acupuncture, Dr. B for transfer at 2:00 & then back to Dr. L.B. for post-transfer acupuncture.  Fingers & toes crossed  for tomorrow to be a "Great" day! 

Lord, please be with our tiny peas...they need your miraculous touch now more than ever! 

Sunday, May 29, 2011

Embryo Update #3

Good News once again!!!  As soon as church ended we rushed to the car to get our update.  Both babies are still grade 4's!!!  They are most definitely staying strong and growing leaps and bounds each day.  Hardy read that as of today they are now in the 8 cell stage.  Tomorrow, they should jump to 16 cell stage & then on to 32 cell blasts just in time for transfer.  Fingers crossed for another great update tomorrow! 

Saturday, May 28, 2011

Embryo Update #2

Wow, was yesterday a long day!  It felt like eternity before hearing our next update.  We finally got our message this morning right before 11:00.  GREAT NEWS thanks to all the prayers, as of today, both babies are grade 4's!!!  They grade them on a scale ranging from 1 to 4...a 4 is the top grade an embryo can receive which means it is forming awesomely without any fragmentation. 

Hardy and I are so happy for both of them, but continue to pray for their healthy development.  Our two lil' Peas will be in incubators until Tuesday.  Dr. B decided to go ahead and wait for the 5 day transfer rather than a 3 day.  This means that we have to make it through two more days of morning updates...so nerve racking, but ultimately worth every second if it's best for them! 

As we wait we continue to think positive and to pray, pray, pray!

Friday, May 27, 2011

Embryo Update #1

It's amazing how fast something so good can pull a 160.  Yesterdays greatness sure did fade fast.  This morning our update was anything, but great....of all 15 eggs, only 2 fertilized...looks like our odds are back to well below average, just like last time & to top it off we're left with no hopes of a back-up plan....we're all in & scared to death.  All we can do is pray that God grants our two little embryo's a fighting chance to make it...please God help them to stay strong.

Egg Retrieval Complete!

I would have updated yesterday, but I was kinda out of it...who knows what I would have typed!  Yesterday, we met with the anaesthesiologist and then they took me back to the O.R. around 10:00am.  The next thing I remember didn't occur until around 1:00.  The actual retrieval only took Dr. B a half hour, but for some reason I had trouble waking up in recovery.  Hardy told me that I wouldn't talk or open my eyes & I was shaking & my eyes went blood shot.  Dr. C (anaesthesiologist) & Dr. B were trying to figure out what was going on.  Thomas said they began putting meds through my I.V. to help reverse the other meds, & they gave me sugars thinking it was my blood sugar.  Hardy, said at one point he began to get a little bit scared even.  But thank goodness, two hours later I began to come to...and this is when I heard the GREAT news!!!  You ready for it....here it is....FIFTEEN EGGS!!!  Dr. B rocked my world when she told me 15.  She was super excited and even said that there must of been an Angel helping her in the O.R.!!!

Dr. B also informed us that my estrogen levels were quite high, so she gave me a prescription for a med that will help with OHSS (ovarian hyper-stimulation syndrome). I guess when you put 15 eggs in a house that usually holds 1 it can cause a little mess. Hopefully, the meds work out & fix the problem.  So, that ups my pill count to four prescriptions + Dr. L.B.'s meds + the infamous PROGESTERONE shots started last night...oh how I didn't miss those ginormous needles in my rear!!!  But, it's all worth it for "Baby Hardy"!

We arrived home from the fertility center around 3:00 and Dr. B called to check on me at 4:00.  She wanted to make sure I was doing ok after the crazy weird recovery.  She said that it was very, very rare & she's still not sure what caused me to struggle so much.  She also told me that of the 15 eggs, she already knew that 8 were mature enough to have a chance at fertilization...so, we're down to 8.  She said she's excited to see how many fertilize over night!!!  Props to Dr. B today...she was over the top helpful & it was very nice of her to call and check up on me.

So, just a recap:
IVF egg retrieval #1: 5 eggs retrieved, 4/5 mature, 2 fertilized
IVF egg retrieval #2: 15 eggs retrieved, 8/15 mature, (fingers crossed for 8 to fertilize)

So, now the waiting continues...this is the toughest part...knowing our lil' peas are in incubators and we have no clue how they are doing until they call us between 10:00 & 11:00 each morning with an update. All we can do is think positive, hope the time passes quickly, & pray, pray,pray for good news!

Waiting to be taken back to the O.R.
Once again, I was forced to sport the "sexy" grippy socks & hair net!
Hardy, modeling the net!

In recovery, out for the count!

Tuesday, May 24, 2011

Day 9 Stim Update

Well, things are moving along...we're getting more & more nervous/excited!  This morning my u/s showed that my follicles are very close to being ready for retrieval.  The IVF coordinator called my PRN line to tell us to TRIGGER tonight at 12:30 (looks like Hardy & I will be up late & all of my Dr. siblings must keep their phones close just in case we need a lil' help)!  Retrieval is also set for Thursday morning at 9:45.  So, now we pray for loads of eggs!!!  Holy Cow....I'm excited!!! Hoping for a better egg count when I wake up in recovery....no repeats of last cycle...please, no repeats!

Monday, May 23, 2011

Day 8 Stim Update

I went in this morning for yet another monitoring u/s paired with blood work.  The follicles are getting bigger and much harder to be measured due to being all jammed in to such a tiny space.  I watched the u/s screen until I noticed a good three that were ginormous in size compared to the others....she told me those will probably be "let go" in order to save the rest....at that I turned my head and quit asking questions, so I'm not sure how many more there were, or exact sizes.  The large ones I saw were right around 23mm.  I chose to look away, hoping that it would be easier to swallow...I knew it would kill me to see more that wouldn't make it to retrieval.  I pray that those three were it...no more.

My PRN message said to continue with the same shots, just a different p.m. dosage & to return tomorrow morning for more blood work & another u/s.  I'll try my best not to look away, for the sake of  a better update...no promises, but I'll give it my best! 

Saturday, May 21, 2011

Day 5 Stim Update

We went to see Dr. B yesterday morning for our first monitoring u/s & blood work.  My blood work came back good and the u/s showed a much better result than IVF cycle #1.  I had 9 follicles on the left & 6-7 on the right.  Apparently my left ovary listened to my threatening pep-talk...I most definitely put it's life on the line this round...haha...give me some good follicles or REMOVAL!  The only part that wasn't the best was the size of the follicles.  They were once again sporadic in size...ranging from 4-5mm all the way to 18mm...we're hoping that works it's self out before retrieval.

The IVF coordinator left a message on my PRN line informing us to start Ganirelix shots immediately, & to keep administering the same meds/dosages until Monday when we return for our next u/s & blood work. 

Current Meds:
Follistim Shot 200iu (a.m.)
Ganirelix Shot (a.m.)
Dexamethason (a.m.)
Dual Pre-Natal
Folic Acid
Menopur 150iu (p.m.)
Dr. L.B fertility meds

My stomach is again beginning to look like "bruise" central & I feel about like the "Michelin Man" when it comes to bloatedness (if that's even a word), but it's all worth it for "Baby Hardy"!!!  Hardy & I are staying positive and looking forward to Monday's update!

P.S.  My last day of teaching for the year was also yesterday....hello SUMMER BREAK!

Sunday, May 15, 2011

Let it Begin...Again...Round #2!

Mother Teresa once said, "I know God will not give me anything I can't handle.  I just wish he didn't trust me so much".  I'm sure of it that her and I could have been the best of friends...too bad she couldn't have lived a few more decades.  I've thought of her quote a lot lately...thanks Mother Teresa for helping a "friend" out...I owe ya one!

I know, I know....it's been a few weeks since my last post, but I've been busy...VERY BUSY!  Finishing up the school year, golf, & doctors appointments have consumed the better part of my time, so here's the scoop on my life:

Hardy and I struggled to make our decision about what to do next with our infertility nightmare.  We layed it all on the table: IVF round #2 with same RE, IVF round #2 with new RE, acupuncture/herbs, or nothing.  We talked out the pros/cons of each option & quickly decided that prior to making a definite decision...we wanted to first get a second opinion with a different RE.  We got an appointment with Dr. R in OKC.  He was "hands down" awesome.  We could tell right away that he was dedicated and completely passionate about his job.  He looked over my records and talked with us about options.  He first confirmed that he recommended another round of IVF & second that he would use follistim and menopur (same as Dr. B).  The only component that he would do differently than Dr. B was Lupron instead of Ganirelex. 

We came home from OKC and again went over our options.  Although, we both liked Dr. R a lot...financially he was going to cost a considerable amount more than staying with Dr. B.  This included cost of treatment paired with multiple 2 hour trips to OKC & hotel stays.  We decided the best option for us at this time is to stay with Dr. B.  It's nice to know that we have Dr. R as a great back-up plan (fingers crossed that we won't need it).  Once, we decided to stay with Dr. B we then had to decide if we wanted to start IVF #2 right away or if we should give acupuncture/herbs more time.  Due to my school year time frame, we decided to go with IVF....the cycle starts just as summer begins...meaning I won't have to worry about missing school (I'm running out of sick days).

So, now that your caught up on our decision making process...I'll fill ya in on all the details.  I went in for my baseline u/s & blood work on May 12th.  I was cyst free and my levels were good to go for the cycle.  We start stim shots tomorrow, May 16th.  This time she put me on much higher dosages of follistim in the a.m & menopur in the p.m.  (This should be interesting for the hormones...poor Thomas!)  We then go in on Friday, May 20th for our first monitoring u/s & blood work to see follicle growth...positive thinking for LOTS of follicles on both sides!!!  I have been and will continue to see Dr. L.B. once a week for acupuncture and I am also taking fertility meds through her. Her and I were talking last week about round #2...we're hoping that the herbal drugs/acupuncture will only increase our odds for success.

Are we scared, nervous, anxious?  Most definitely...more than ever!  But on the other hand we are hopeful & as Mother Teresa said it best...we know that God won't give us what we can't handle, so we will keep our faith in God's plan for us...because through the good times and the tough times, we trust that he knows what's best for us.

So...here goes...wish us luck and lots of prayers!!!



                                                                                                   

Saturday, April 9, 2011

Just a little Update

Thank goodness the weekend has arrived!  It feels like life has been so crazy with work, golf tournaments, coaching, doctor appointments & Thomas traveling...it's nice to have a couple days off to refresh!

This past week was a touch better emotionally, I think it was the beautiful weather...the sun finally decided to make an appearance...thank goodness!!!  Also, I met with Dr. D (my OBGYN), Dr. B (my RE), & Dr. L.B. (Acup) and received lots of updated information on our continuing journey through infertility. 

Dr. B met with us to discuss our failed cycle and her recommendations for future treatment.  Of coarse we went in expecting answers as to why our lil' guys didn't make it & as predicted there were no concrete answers.  Once the embryos are transferred to the uterus there's no way of knowing why or why not they take. (I guess it's just affirmation to what I've accepted, but am tired of hearing: "God just didn't have it in the cards for us" or "It wasn't in his plan" or "Kelly, everything happens for a reason").  Dr. B went on to tell us that she recommends IVF round #2.  This time with different stim meds (more shots) with hopes of producing more than 5 eggs.  She talked about that being a huge factor...I'm 27....the ultimate goal would be to have a minimum of 10.  Dr. B seemed positive and confidant in our next cycle being successful...I sure hope she's right.

After, meeting with Dr. B, I decided that I wanted to go back to meet with Dr. D to discuss where we've come in this infamous journey since she refered us out to the specialist.  To be honest, I was excited to meet with her....I've gone to her for a long time and I trust her.  Like I told her..."I'm here because I'm bummed, nervous, frustrated, & scared about where we've come & about what to do next."  Dr. D was completely empathetic, honest, & 100% helpful.  She gave me her honest opinion about what steps to take next & made me feel better (more normal) about my emotional craziness.  She met with me for a good 40mins & when I got up to walk out she gave me a hug & wrote no-charge on my chart.  That says a lot about a doctor...I feel pretty blessed to have her as my physician.

To end the week, on Thursday I went to see Dr. L.B. for acupuncture.  As always...she was completely helpful and optimistic.  Every week I look forward to my appointment...she's awesome about answering all of my crazy questions, being completely supportive, & making me feel more positive & relaxed.  Once again...we're blessed to have yet another great doctor helping us throughout this journey!

As for now, Thomas & I have some big decisions to make...what to do next & of course when to do it.  Please, Lord help us to make the right decisions!

Tuesday, March 29, 2011

Staying Postive

It's almost been two weeks and has honestly felt like two months...I guess time drags when you're on the mend trying to put yourself back together.  We're doing better everyday and are doing our best to stay positive.  I have to admit that staying "positive" has never been so hard.  Thomas definitely takes the cake on this one...he has been amazing...he motivates me everyday to keep smiling & pushing through. 

As for now, we are waiting for our next leg of this tenacious journey to begin.  Surprise, suprise we're once again waiting.  If anyone needs any help in the "patience" department, just give us a call...we can most definitely hook you up!  In the mean time I will continue to see Dr. L.B. once a week & we will meet with Dr.B again soon. 

Friday, March 18, 2011

Down & Out

On Wednesday I went in for blood work at 8:00 and at 11:15 the phone rang with the news.  My heart sank as soon as I heard the tone of her voice...I knew what she was about to say & I didn't want to hear it...hanging up on her actually crossed my mind.  She told me that my number had done the opposite of what we had hoped and prayed so hard that it would do.  It went down to 15...which means that we lost both of our little peas.  I don't know how else to describe myself other than heartbroken & full of frustration.  I know that God has a plan, and this is it...I get that & believe it, but it still doesn't take the hurt away. 

After hearing the news, I couldn't stop the tears...and after the tears came the frustration & just wanting to scream and punch something.  To top off the day, Thomas was off on a work trip to Mississippi...killer timing for him to have to leave.  Poor guy...leaving was the last thing he wanted to do.  Thank goodness it was just an overnight trip.  I've got to say that Dr. L.B. came through at just the right time.  She had me come in that afternoon and was so helpful.  She answered all of my questions, explained to me what to expect in the next few days and just listened as I explained my frustrations.  I left her office feeling a lot better than when I walked in.  Pretty awesome to have a doctor who cares that much.

As for now, Thomas and I are taking the days as they come.  We go back to meet with Dr. B a week from Monday.  We look forward to hearing her thoughts on our failed cycle and to hear what she thinks is in the cards for us in the future.  We most definitely have lots of questions for her & hope that she has lots of answers.

To our little peas...we will always love you & can't wait to meet you in Heaven!

Tuesday, March 15, 2011

More Waiting...

Yesterday morning at 8:15 I went in for my beta test.  We came home and did some more of what we seem to do a lot of lately......WAIT.  We waited by the phone for the call that could possibly change our lives.  It finally rang at 10:45.  I nervously answered and she said,

"You're pregnant, but....your level came back at 23 and that is a very low number for 14dpt, so either there's something not going good with the babies, or you're just one of the very few women that are slow hcg producers.  We want you to keep taking your meds & come back Wednesday morning for another beta test.  If your number doubles then things could look up. So, we'll all keep our fingers and toes crossed for a double on Wednesday."

So, there you have it...more waiting.  We are more nervous/scared than ever, but are still trying to stay positive.  All we can do now is pray that things go well on Wednesday.  I let Dr. L.B. know the news yesterday and she sent me a lot of helpful information about the numbers and arranged to get me in today.  I felt a lot better and more relaxed after I left her office.

So, until tomorrow...we will continue to wait & pray...with our fingers and toes crossed for good news.

Monday, March 7, 2011

One Week!

Exactly one week from today this dreadful  2ww will be over & we can't wait!!!  Today, it was back to work for me...what a day it was too!  It was the beginning of the 50 minute longer school day, golf was crazy, & I even had one break down with full fledged tears.  Thank goodness only one other teacher witnessed the tears...so embarrassing...a stressful situation mixed with my injections and hormones equals emotional craziness.  Once again, Thomas came through and turned a not so good day into a great evening.  He surprised me & showed up to golf practice & then made me dinner!  I love that guy so darn much!!! He's the best! 

Speaking of Hardy, I've got a good story on him!!!  Every night he gives me my progesterone shot & as I mentioned in my last post...the needle is HUGE!  Well, last night he gave me the shot like always and then he went to put the cap on the needle in order to remove it from the syringe.  Lets just say things didn't go as planned.  He missed with the lid and stabbed himself with the needle & it went all the way through his THUMB!!!  It was and still looks pretty nasty.  Poor guy!  Although, I did have to remind him that I have to feel that needle every night...now, he legitimately feels my pain!  Here's a pic of him, Gus, & the wounded/bandaged thumb.


Back to my not so good day...when I arrived home Thomas handed me a letter that we received today from his cousin Sheri.  What a perfect day to receive a letter like this one.  It made my day & brought tears to my eyes.  She also sent two prayers that we will most definitely add to our nightly list.  Thank you Sheri for your words of encouragement and for all the prayers...it truly means so much to us! 

Until, my next post we will continue to stay positive, PATIENT, and pray for good news!

Thursday, March 3, 2011

2 Week Wait...

The infamous two week wait is harder than ever, but as of today we are three days down, with eleven to go!  We are hanging in there trying to keep ourselves occupied as we wait.  I must say that this week hasn't been that bad.  I took off work to relax, hang with Thomas and Gus and give our lil' guys a good chance at attaching.  It's been a nice, stress free few days. 

Someone asked me today if I was feeling any pregnancy symptoms.  I am feeling signs, but it's due to my nightly progesterone shots.  They put off a lot of the same things a newly pregnant women would feel.  Speaking of these shots...HUGE NEEDLES...thank goodness for the lidocaine cream.  Without that cream it would be a long 12 weeks!  Tomorrow, I go to see Dr. L.B. for acupuncture.  I'm sure she'll get a good laugh out of Thomas's blue sharpie circles he's drawn all over my butt!!!  Each night he draws a circle and places the lidocaine in it, so then 45 minutes later he won't miss the spot with the shot.  I'll take a sharpied behind over the pain of that big needle any day!!!

Our family and friends have once again been over the top amazing!  We can't thank you enough for all the thoughts and prayers!  Thank you also for the visits, cards, messages & fabulous food!  My fam surprised us and brought dinner, cake, and flowers over for my birthday...made a perfect ending to our great day!   Megan brought her famous "steak soup" & cornbread to us for egg/retrieval! Tuesday night Sharon brought us chicken pot-pie, blueberry bread, & brownies!  Today, Joell & Jill came to visit with chocolate chip cookies!  We feel very blessed!

We've been praying this prayer for our lil' peas each night....we pray it twice, one time for each of our peas!

Bless this Little Child, Lord

Lord, look down from
heaven above
And touch this special
child with love,
Protect and guide
this little one
Till each and
every day is done:
Remind us often
that it's true:
This little life is a gift from You.
A miracle you've
sent our way!
Lord, bless this
little child today.

Monday, February 28, 2011

Transfer Complete = Best B-day Ever!

Today was one day that I will never forget!  We got to the fertility center at 1:30.  They took us back to meet with Dr. B.  She said that it has been a roller coaster of a few days, but our two lil' guys hung in there and are doing great.  One of them was still rated at a 3, while the other one had jumped up to a 4 (This is great news considering the scale ranges from 1 to 4)!  We signed the transfer papers and they took me to the back to get changed into my favorite get-up...hospital gowns, grippy socks, & the sexy hair net!  The nurse then took me back to the operating room to prepare me for transfer.  Let me emphasize that they told me to come with a full bladder and at this point I am already about to explode.  She got me situated on the table and then we waited for what seemed like hours to someone with a close to exploding bladder.  Finally, Dr. B came in and began the transfer.  The worst part is that while Dr. B is transferring, the nurse is pushing on my FULL blatter with the ultrasound.  The only thing running through my head over and over was....please don't pee on Dr. B, please don't pee on Dr. B!  Dr. T brought in our two lil' peas, handed them over to Dr. B, she then transferred them and I was on my way to recovery.  I was to wait another 30 minutes tilted upside down with hopes that they are securing themselves for the long haul!  We then headed straight to Dr. L.B. for acupuncture. She was awesome to get us in right away, within an hour after transfer.  It was relaxing from what I remember of it...I was kinda out of it due to the meds they gave me for transfer...pretty sure Dr. L.B. and Thomas got some good laughs!

We even got pictures of our two lil' peas...they're the cutest circle of cells I've ever seen!  Thomas and I were so excited that we even had to take our first family photo!


Thank you Lord for our two lil' peas & my miraculous birthday presents....they are perfect!  We now pray that they both attach and hold strong!

Sunday, February 27, 2011

One Great Day!

It's been a long day, but a great one too!  This morning we got up and went to church, which helped with the waiting game, but we were definitely nervous/excited for ten to roll around.  Thomas, Mark, Mom, & I decided to try out a new little coffee shop for breakfast...so there we sat...Thomas made the call...no message on the PRN line.  So, we sat and he called over and over & still no message.  10:30 rolled around and still no dice!  Then, my phone rang & the caller I.D. read "Dr. B"....wow, was I nervous to answer that phone call.  I answered it & the IVF coordinator began telling me to be at the fertility center tomorrow at 1:30...I had to interrupt her and ask, "So, does this mean that our embryo's are doing good"?  She responded with some great news: "Yes, their both doing very good, rated at 3's and are ready for transfer tomorrow."  I can't remember anything else that she said...I hung up the phone, turned to Thomas with a huge smile & some tears & I told him the news!  The first thing out of his mouth..."Kelly, what's tomorrow"?  Then, it hit me...tomorrow is my birthday & I'm going to receive two lil' miracles as gifts!  How awesome is that!  Maybe, just, maybe 27 won't be so bad after all!

So, now we continue to pray for our lil' peas to attach tomorrow and to hold strong & grow, grow, grow!!!  We go in for transfer at 1:30 and then directly to Dr. L.B.'s for acupuncture.  Tomorrow's going to be another great day!!!

Saturday, February 26, 2011

Living Update to Update

After, a sleepless night and a restless morning ten a.m. finally came around.  I couldn't make the call to the PRN line...way to nervous, Thomas had to do it.  Our nurse said that of our five eggs only two had fertilized & for us to check back at ten a.m. tomorrow to see how the two are coming along.  So, there you have it...we are down to two.  We feel like we're swimming up-stream, but as Thomas says, at least we're still swimming!  Two is better than one or even none, so for now we are going to do our best to stay positive & pray for our two lil' peas to stay strong! 

The countdown is on for our next update...12 more hours!

Egg Retrieval Complete

It's 12:10 a.m. and I wide awake having trouble falling back asleep...way too much rolling through my head.  We went in today or I guess now it's yesterday at 8:15 am for egg retrieval.  They took us back and got me prepped for the operating room.  Once again I had to sport the sexy socks and hair net with my trendy gown...Thomas got a good laugh...& again him and the nurse got in some good jokes!  The anaesthesiologist came and talked with us and then it was time to be taken to the operating room.  With a kiss goodbye and a good luck to Hardy I was on my way.  I remember laying on the operating table for what seemed like forever while he tried both hands over and over trying to get my I.V. started...my veins pulled their normal tricks & fought a hard fight against the needle.  He told me he was going to try one last try before moving to the NECK...thankfully, he finally got it!  The next thing I remember is waking up in recovery.

Thomas was next to me when I came to...I looked at him and right away asked, "How many eggs"?  In my mind I so wanted him to reply with ten minimum.  But, he didn't say ten or even close to ten.  He said, "Five" & at that moment I lost it emotionally.  I knew our odds for a successful cycle had gone down considerably and I couldn't handle it.  I felt the tears begin to run down my cheeks.  Thomas was awesome, he held my hand, talked me through it, and stayed as strong as ever....yet another reminder of how lucky I am to have him in my life not only as my husband, but as my best friend....so blessed!  It wasn't long before Dr. B came in to talk with us.  She was  incredibly caring as she obviously could tell I was disappointed and held my other arm as she talked to us.  She said that I had upwards of twelve, but of those, some were too big/mature, some too small, and some were good follicles but just didn't house eggs.  That left us with five out of the twelve that were in good shape with good eggs.  She talked about how yes we were shooting for ten and yes, that would have increased our odds drastically, but sometimes it just doesn't work out as we hope it will....& now we focus on the five good ones. She said with my age, we still have good odds at fertilization.  Then, she ended with a story about her growing up & having downer days like this....she said when the sun comes up tomorrow things will be better!  That's why I love her and am confident in her ability to help us, she's an amazing doctor with a heart that truly cares about her patients!

As Thomas and I headed to the car I caught myself giving our five lil' guys a pep talk as the tears still fell.  Please, Lord help them to make it through the night....all of them!  I get it that statistically the odds are not in our favor, but please make an acceptation.  We've never wanted something so bad.  I promise we will be exceptional parents...we're so excited and ready to share our love with a sweet addition!  I mean, look at Thomas, he's going to be the best Dad!

I don't think of myself as a very emotional person, but today showed me otherwise.  It has been a tough day filled with lots of tears and loads of prayers. Thank goodness for our awesome families and great friends who are all in our corner with open arms.  We wouldn't be able to make it through days like this without you all.  Thank you from the bottom of our hearts for all the thoughts and prayers!  We love you all!  So, we will continue to pray for our five lil' peas to stay strong.  As, I mentioned at the beginning, there's too much going through my head to sleep...I'm so excited yet scared for 10 am to get here.  That's when we get the update on them and we will know how many fertilized and what each embryo rates.  Lord, I pray for these lil' guys...be with them and if it's your will let us beat the odds and get five for five!!!

Wednesday, February 23, 2011

Day 11 Stim Update

Today has been a great day!  I arrived at school early to prepare for a guest speaker to talk to my class about his experiences as a pilot in Chad & The Democratic Republic of Congo.  It was awesome...the kids loved him, his pictures, & his stories.  It's always cool as a teacher when I can see my students making real life connections with the present content I am teaching them!

Next, I picked up Hardy and we headed to the Fertility Clinic for yet another day of u/s & blood work.  My veins were once again adamant about not cooperating, so it took tries on both arms before we were told to go in for our u/s and to come back for her to try again on the blood struggle.  My follicles looked ginormous! Too many to count in the right ovary & still just three in the left ovary....although, I must give the left some credit...two of those three looked and measured perfect!  I received my last injection of follistim & headed back for round two of blood work...two more sticks and she got it! Thank Goodness!!!

Thomas called our PRN line at 2:00 to find out some exciting news...my follicles are ready!!!  We will trigger tonight at 11:00 and come in for egg retrieval Friday morning at 8:15!  We are both full of emotions...super excited, incredibly scared, & yet full of hope!  With God's will, we will have our little Pea's in incubators by Friday afternoon! 

I ended the day by seeing Dr. L.B. for acupuncture and I'll go back again tomorrow for another session to prepare my body for retrieval.  She's all about timing it perfect with my cycle.  Transfer day will fall on either Monday or Wednesday of next week.  I'll go back to Dr. L.B. within an hour after the transfer is complete.  This is one crazy journey, but it will be completely worth all the doctors, pills, shots, & appointments when we get that first positive!  We pray, pray, pray for a successful cycle!

Tuesday, February 22, 2011

Day 10 Stim Update

Went in today for another u/s & blood work.  My follicles looked huge & feel huge (wow...feel like I'm about to explode), but they left us a message on our PRN line saying that we have to come in for another appointment tomorrow morning.  My follicles just aren't completely ready yet & Dr. B wants them to be perfect.  Dr. B knows best, so we will push it back a day with hopes of some of the lil' ones to grow leaps and bounds over night!  Come on Ms. Left Ovary, this is your last chance to step it up and shine!  Ms. Right Ovary, nice job thus far.... please don't explode as we wait & give Ms. Left some much needed pointers!!!

We are to take another follistim shot tonight & ganirelex shot in the morning along with all my pills.  Back to see Dr. B at 9:00 for what should be our last u/s & blood work before retrieval!  Also, back to Dr. L.B. for acupuncture tomorrow afternoon.  We are super stoked and can't wait for the next few days to play out!  We continue to put this all in God's hands as we pray for God to help Dr. B to do what she does best! 

Monday, February 21, 2011

Day 9 Stim Update

We went to see Dr. B this morning to check on our follicles.  The "blood stud" was back today, so I thought it would be a one stick morning....well so much for hopeful thinking, she tried each arm with the butterfly needle before telling me to come back after my u/s for her to try again!  My veins are adamant about keeping my blood in....they better start cooperating because they talked today about the possibility of taking it through my NECK!  Awesome, huh? Just how everybody wants to start their day...a needle to the neck! 

My follicles looked GREAT in the right ovary. She counted 10 that measured in the high teens to twenty & said that there were also some smaller ones that could still make a comeback.  My left ovary stepped up to help out but barely...she saw 2 good sized follicles and one little one. Beggars can't be choosers...2 is better than one! Thank goodness the right ovary is working overtime!!!

Thomas checked our PRN line this afternoon and the IVF coordinator told us to take the follistim shot tonight & again in the morning along with the ganirelex shot and am pills.  Then, we are to come back to the office tomorrow at 8:15. 

We are getting soooo excited! Well, lets be honest...excited & nervous all at once!  This is going to be a really big week....egg retrieval/egg hunt will for sure happen no later than Friday!  Prayers are in full throttle!

Day 7 Stim Update

I went back to see Dr. B on Saturday (Day 7 of Stim shots) for another u/s & blood work.  Due to it being the weekend, the regular "awesome" blood getter lady wasn't there, so of coarse, getting my blood was a struggle.  It took this lady lots of sticks, and both arms before she got it. She told me that my veins are the smallest she has ever seen...Thanks Mom & Dad for this awesome pass me down feature!

Dr. B did my u/s and found 10-11 good sized follicles in the right ovary and only 1 in the left :(  She said that sometimes this happens, where on side just gives up while the other side works really hard.  She didn't seem too concerned, so I'm trying not to worry about it, although I would really love for Ms. Left Ovary to wake it up & to realize it's game time!!! I still have hope for a comeback on the left!!! The more follicles we have...the better our chances for a successful cycle!

We are to keep taking the follistim shots, the pills, & are to add the ganirelex shot (this one will keep me from ovulating).  Return back to the doctor Monday morning!

Thursday, February 17, 2011

Day 5 Stim Update

We went to see Dr. B this morning for an u/s and blood work.  I had seven follicles in the right ovary and three follicles in the left.  She also said there were a few more that were too small to measure, but they could still grow bigger in time for retrieval.  I'm not gonna lie...I was a bit bummed about the total follicle count...I was hoping for a number in the high teens :(  Thomas called the PRN line at 2:00 and the IVF coordinator said that everything looked good and to keep up with the stim shots at the same dosages and then back to the fertility center on Saturday for another u/s & blood work.  Time to pray for those lil guys to grow, grow, grow!!!

I also went to see Dr. L.B. today and it went really good. I'm so glad we added acupuncture to this crazy journey...I feel like it's helping tons & bonus: it's straight up relaxing!  Next week we will do extra treatments timed out perfect with egg retrieval and implantation.  Dr. L.B. is planning it all out to the hour as to when I need to come in.  She also made me feel a lot better about the number of follicles and told me not to worry one ounce about it.  So, as Dr. L.B. requested...I'm going to stay clear of googling info and am just going to relax with a clear mind & I'll just pray about it...putting this all in God's hands!

It's looking like egg retrieval or as my friend Missy calls it: the "egg hunt" will happen either Wednesday, Thursday, or Friday of next week.  Holy Cow! We're so excited! This time next week our lil' peas will... hopefully, fingers crossed, praying hard...be more than a wish or a hope!

Monday, February 14, 2011

Happy V-Day & Happy Anniversary T!

I feel so unbelievably blessed!  Today, is our Wedding Anniversary and I am reminded of how lucky I am to have such an amazing husband. The time since we said, "I Do" has flown by, but it has been, hands down, the time of my life! I love you T.C.H!  Thanks for being you!

Baby Update:
We started shots Sunday and are doing them everyday twice a day: 7:00am & 7:00pm.  So far, so good!  Thomas has got the dosages down and has been a great shot-giver (haha, never thought I would say that about my husband)!  I have been bruising after every shot, so my stomach is beginning to look like a battlefield...good thing it's not bathing suit season!  This week I go back to Dr. L.B. for acupuncture on Wednesday & Dr. B on Thursday morning.  Dr. B will check to see if the stim shots are working by doing an u/s & blood work.  She will also tell us when to start Ganirelix shots.

Here's a pic of Thomas preparing to give me my first shot...he actually read the directions...shocker! Also, a pic of Gus on his birthday crawling through a tunnel!