Tummy Update!

I have done a not so good job of keeping my blog up to date, but now that school's out I'm determined to do better! Plus, it will give me something to do as I patiently (or not so patiently) wait on our little girl to get here!  So, today will consist of a few posts.  First up: check out the tummy update (weeks 27-36, minus 28)!



So in Love!

Here are a few pictures from todays 28 week ultrasound.  She is still bundled up in a ball with her hands and knees in her face...making it a little difficult to get face shots, but we still got a few.  The ultrasound lady proclaimed that she thinks Baby Girl looks just like her Daddy...I have to say I agree...she even has his cute little dimples! 

We are so in Love with our Little Girl...counting down the weeks until she is here!

Week 27...too much "Orange Drink"!

Thank goodness week 28 starts tomorrow!  Week 27 was a bit too eventful!  We went to see Dr. D last Monday (April 2nd).  Everything with Baby Hardy was awesome...once again she had one heck of a strong heartbeat, my weight gain is ideal with 12 lbs  (or so she says, I on the other hand feel a little more like a whale)  & my belly was measuring good!  I also had to take my one hour glucose test.  It consists of drinking some thick, over-the top, extremely sweet, & syrupy orange beverage in 5 mins...and then one hour later they draw blood to check for signs of gestational diabetes.  Here's a pick after I was one chug down:

Don't be fooled by the smile on my face...nothing about this drink makes me smile or even remotely think about smiling!  The smile was provoked by my husband...he was a champ...pumping me up, talking me through each chug, & doing his best to keep me smiling.  Sure do love that guy!  Back to the orange drink: I got it down/kept it down, waited the hour, had my blood drawn & then celebrated!  I had completed the emphasis nasty drink test of pregnancy that all my pals had told me about!!!

My celebration lasted until Thursday when Dr. D's nurse called and informed me that I had FAILED.  My heart sank because I knew exactly what that meant...more ORANGE DRINK!  Yep, she went on to tell me that I had to come back for a 3 hour test on Friday.  So, Friday morning T & I headed back to the lab.  This time I had to chug double the amount in the same 5 minute time frame.  They took my blood right before the chug & then on the hour for the next 3 hours.  T & I couldn't leave the lab until my last draw.  All I can say is #1:  thank goodness I got it down/kept it down & #2: I have officially retired myself from any & all orange flavored beverages for life!

So, now we wait until tomorrow or the day after to find out the results of the test. Tomorrow we will also go in for our 4D ultrasound.   So excited!  Can't wait to see our Baby Girl!  Fingers crossed that she cooperates and gives us some good face pics...it's been a struggle in the past...she likes to stay all folded up with her hands and long legs covering her face.  I'll try and post some pics tomorrow!

26.5 Week Update:

Its so hard to believe that 6 more weeks have gone by since my last post!  Once again, I have lots of updates so here goes...

Our appointments with Dr. D have all gone very smoothly.  Baby Girl Hardy seems to be growing at a normal pace with a strong heartbeat.  We pray that this continues for 13.5 more weeks!  We go in this weekend for all day labor/delivery classes and then go back on Monday for my next scheduled OB appointment.  This will be the glucose test day...I've been trying to pump myself up to down the glass of flat orange awesomeness, so time will tell how that event goes...lets hope good!  Following Mondays appointment we will be seeing Dr. D every two weeks for the next few and then switching to every week a little later.

Baby Girl took her first trip to Florida for the Reeds/Murrays family reunion!  It was one heck of a trip filled with lots of fun: Mickey Mouse, face paint, golf, pool, beach, & Great Family Time!  Of course we will have to take her back a little later when she can partake in more of the fun rather than just hearing it all as she swam around in my belly! Here are a few FL pics:

Next Update: Growing BELLY!  T has been taking belly pics so we can keep track of some crazy belly growth...so here you go...check out our little Pea growing bigger every week:

16 Weeks

19 Weeks

Its just unbelievable how blessed we are.  God is so amazing...to bless us with this Miracle Baby Girl... We sure do serve one awesome God!  I used to look down at my growing belly and be reminded of this every single day, but back at 22 weeks I finally felt our miracle for the first time & now I'm reminded multiple times a day of God's awesomeness...every time she stretches and wiggles!  T & I just can't get enough of her.  At night as we lay in bed and stare at my belly...we are beginning to see her from the outside rolling around...so cool!  I will say, her and her Daddy already have a special bond.  She can be moving like crazy...he places his hand on my belly & within seconds she settles down.  Looks like he's in charge when she's fussy...lucky guy!

My goal from this point forward is to update my blog every week for the remainder of our Pregnancy Journey.  Next week: the reveal of Baby H's Nursery & the results of the orange drink test!

P.S. Here's a video that T & I made for her to watch one day when she's much older.  We showed it to our friends and family at the Gender Party (click the "Baby Hardy" link below to watch):

Baby Hardy

20 Week Update & We've got some BIG News!

The last 5 weeks have been full of baby excitement...from doctors appointments to family visits from ND, to one pretty amazing party!  I've got lots to update you on, so here goes: 

We went back to see Dr. B (the specialist) at 18 weeks.  She checked every inch of Baby Hardy for an hour on ultrasound.  The majority of the time was spent analyzing the heart and spine.  Thank goodness, everything looked incredibly healthy!  We also found out our big news at this appointment.  Well, actually we found out, but didn't find out...if that makes any since.  Before, she began the ultrasound we told her that we were planning a gender party, so she wouldn't tell us the news, but rather put it in a sealed envelope.  We watched our baby on the screen for an entire hour and neither of us could tell you one way or the other, but the ultrasound lady said she knew & took pics of the goods within the first 10 minutes!!!  She handed us the envelope and we were off...that was one challenging car ride back to work with that envelope sitting between us!

We passed the envelope on to the cake lady & then had to wait for 5 long days to finally find out the news.  We wanted to find out girl or boy with our families & close friends so we thought a party would be a perfect way to find out!  Also, a perfect way to celebrate our Miracle! 

The cake lady opened the envelope and baked a cake with either pink or blue on the inside, so we wouldn't know the news until we cut in to it!  On February 4th at 6:00 our house was all decorated, everyone was here, and it was time!  Here are some pics leading up to the big reveal:

"I just can't decide if I should guess little brother or little sister?"

"The Cake" & "Decorations"!

"Team Pink"

 

"Team Blue"

Drum Roll!!!

The Moment We Knew:

"It's a GIRL"!

We are so excited to announce that we have a beautiful Little Lady on the way!

We are so in Love with this little girl:

* A special thanks to all of our family and friends for making the big reveal party a huge success!  We had so much fun sharing the moment we found out with all of you!  We love you!

15 Week: Update on Baby "Thumper"

We are so excited and thankful that our appointment with the high risk specialist: Dr. B...it went very well back at 12 weeks.  She ran special tests to check our little pea for chromosome problems.  It was quite the appointment...it took 30mins to get baby hardy in the right position for the tests...for some reason he or she thought it would be more fun to stand on its head rather than cooperate!!! Dr. B expressed that we might have our hands full when this little one arrives....oh gosh...lol!  Baby "Thumper" did finally flip around and did great & all the tests so far have checked out ok.  Here is a picture taken at that appointment.  We got lots of pics of our beautiful little pea, but this one was by far our favorite!  Unbelievable for just 12 weeks old!

Today actually marks 15 weeks!  We went back to see Dr. D today & everything looked great!  She has been giving us ultrasounds at each appointment.  Today it was on a hand held machine...pretty neat...it's about the size of an i-phone.  Thumper had a strong heartbeat, but wasn't too excited to see us...he or she was snoozing the entire time!!! Dr. D tried poking & prodding, but Thumper slept straight through it.  She thought maybe this was a good sign & we'll have a very laid back little bambino! 

Other news on the baby front:  Baby Hardy has decided to make a slight appearance on the outside of my belly! It's official...I've got a little "Thumper" bump!

T & I are so unbelievably excited! We still can't stop smiling every time we think about our little miracle baby! We love him or her so much & are counting down the days until we get to finally hold our miracle in our arms!  God is so Good & we are so thankful!

Plan E...Our Miracle!

Well it's safe to say I've taken a long enough hiatus from my blog.  I can honestly say I haven't even looked at it since I posted my last post back in July.  I'm long overdue for an update, It's going to be a BIG update so I've divided it up into parts, so here goes:

Part 1
Back in July I hit a pretty bad low in my life's journey.  I've never been so frustrated, saddened, & plan less in my entire life.  I'm the type of person that has got to have a plan....I not only have to have a plan A, but also, most definitely a plan B  & just in case I might need it...a plan C.  July left me feeling completely out of control and out of plans...we had plowed through, Plans A, B, & C and there was no Plan D in the works or even in site.

Just when things seemed to be falling completely a part we got a mystery gift in our mailbox.  It was a book titled, "Plan B: What do you do when God doesn't show up the way you thought he would?"  by Pete Wilson.  T & I can both say that this book gave us our perspective back.  It helped us to see and understand that God shares in our grief & frustrations....he cries with us...he understands, but he also knows what's best for us. One of my favorite ah-ha quotes from the book:

"Your dreams may not be happening, and things aren't turning out the way you expected, but that doesn't mean your life is spinning out of control, It just means you're not in control."

How perfectly worded is that!  So hard to swallow for a planner, but so true and exactly what I need to read at exactly the right time.  The book goes on to parallel stories of the bible that encountered Plan B circumstances with our lives today.  It's the best book I've ever read.  The very last paragraph of the book said, 

"I'm asking you to trust that one day faith will win over doubt, that light will win over darkness, that love will win over hate, and that all things will one day be redeemed.  I'm asking you, right in the middle of your Plan B pain, to trust the process that is going on in your life.  It won't be finished for a while, but it has begun.  God will finish what he started.  Wait for it."

And that's exactly what T & I decided to do...we were willing to have faith and wait for it...

Part 2
July lasted for what seemed like forever, but it did eventually come to an end.  It wasn't until mid September that T & I began to talk about Plan D.  We were incredibly scared/nervous about what/where to go next with our infertility journey.  We began to talk about how financially, we could make another run at an IVF cycle...should we sell one of our cars, take out a loan, get extra or new jobs, or try our luck at the lottery?  Our next contemplation was: should we switch specialists or stay with Dr. B.  We both really liked Dr.B, but another doctor in OKC had a little bit better success statistics....do we gamble and switch or stay?  Talk about stressful decisions!

On October 10th I had an appointment with Dr. D, my regular OBGYN.  I discussed our contemplations with her and she advised switching.  She had done one of her residency's with Dr. R in OKC and she highly recommended him.  That's all we needed...a little push in one direction or the other, so as soon as I got home we called and made an appointment with Dr. R and got in one day later on October 11th.

We went to OKC, met with the doctors and got everything set up for our Plan D.  They were going to have one more round of IVF cycles before the new year and we got all signed up.  Dr. R said, just to call when my cycle began and we would then begin meds.

Part 3
A couple weeks went by and no cycle.  T & I didn't think anything of this due to my cycle always being unpredictable and crazy long.  Dr. R on the other hand began to worry about us missing the IVF cycle.  He called and said that my cycle had to start by Monday, October 24th.  On Saturday, the 22nd T & I headed to Target at 9 p.m. to pick up a pregnancy test (target brand, since we've already spent enough on the name brand test that we should own E.P.T).  We went home and I pee'd on the stick for the 1,000th time, set it on the counter and walked away.  T walked in and all he could get out was, "No way, am I really seeing this right?".  The Test had TWO lines...POSITIVE!  Neither of us could talk, we just laid in bed with huge smiles trying not to jinx anything.  The only thought I had was, " This has got to be the sickest joke God could ever play on us if its a faulty test b/c we got the Target brand"!

Turns out, it was no joke!  We went to the doctor on Monday for blood work and it came back at 144.  Went back on Wednesday and it was 320.  Dr. D said we were most definitely pregnant, but she was concerned because my levels were so low...she wasn't sure if I was already losing the baby.  She said to come back in a week and a half for an ultrasound because by then we should be able to see a heartbeat for sure.

We went in for that ultrasound and their was a baby, but no heartbeat.  I remember Dr. D seemed positive, but it was kinda that fake positive....I remember asking her our odds...she said she didn't like to give odds but honestly our odds were 30% less likely than the average couple at this turning out ok.  She said to come back in one week....at that point we will know for sure if we've lost it or if by chance God had blessed us with a miracle!

Part 4
Longest week ever!!!  The day finally arrived, and we nervously walked into the office for our ultrasound.  We saw the baby, and then we saw the FLICKER of the heart & heard the SWEETEST beat!  God had plans for our little miracle pea!!!  Dr. D joined us in the room and was beyond excited for us!   Before, she left she confessed that she had something to tell us...last week when we were in and asking odds she didn't have the heart to tell us that our little baby would have to beat all odds in order to make it.  She said that she has been doing this for a LONG time and has NEVER seen a baby on ultrasound where ours was a week ago and week later the heart actually start beating!  She added that we thought God performed a miracle by getting me pregnant, but he performed an even bigger miracle on our baby this week!!!  How amazing is that!!!

So, I'm so excited to announce to the world that we are currently 12 weeks pregnant with our Plan E:  "Miracle Pea"!!!  Let me just tell you...this is one cute little Miracle!  We went to the specialist today and got some really good pics!  Let me introduce to you our "Miracle Baby" of whom we currently call, "Thumper":

So, just in case someone reading this is in the midst or their own Plan B... take a long hard look above at our Plan E & let it remind you that you can't ever lose your faith in God!  He might just have a miracle waiting for you around the corner!!!

Heartbroken...

A week ago Monday (7-11-11) we went in for our 8 week/4 day ultrasound.  As we sat waiting for Dr. B to come in T & I talked about how we both had a "good" feeling about what we were about to see...we were so excited to see Baby "Hardy".  After, a few minutes (of which felt like eternity) Dr. B came in along with her nurse.  She began the ultrasound and right away Baby "H" popped up on the screen...at first sight we were over the top excited, Baby "H" had grown leaps & bounds & looked just like all the other 8-9 week baby ultrasound pics.  My excitement faded fast when the nurse slipped out & I looked up at Dr. B's face.  There was no smile, but yet a look of total concern...a few seconds later she said, "I don't like what I'm seeing" & our hearts sank.  She went on to tell us that the baby had grown, but the heart was not beating.  I just kept starring at the screen praying for it to start beating as the tears began to flow. 

Dr. B talked with us for a long while, explaining that she doesn't have an answer as to why this happened.  It could be due to our infertility issues or it could have just happened...there's no way of confirming why.  She was entirely genuine as she talked & consoled us.  She told us that she had been through two miscarriages herself and that she wishes there was something she could do or say to make it better, but she understands our heartbreak.  Thomas asked her what do we do now & she explained our options.  We could either have surgery or she would give us two weeks for it to happen naturally...it was entirely up to us.  She also explained that she's a doctor & science is what she knows, but more importantly she has a heart too, so she would understand if we wanted another ultrasound later.  As we walked out & drove home I couldn't control the tears as my emotions did flips from frustration, to sadness, to anger. 

Later, that morning we called Dr. B to schedule surgery.  There was no way that I could handle the thought of knowing that it could  happen at anytime & even more so, there was no way that I could take seeing it.  Dr. B was incredibly nice about everything, called us back personally & scheduled the surgery for the next morning: 7-12-11 (I'll never forget that date). 

We had to be at the hospital at 6:00am for pre-op and the surgery was set for 7:30.  They got my I.V. started and we waited for them to come take me to the operating room...I began to panic...Dr. B promised me another ultrasound to double-check, but what if they put me out before I see her.  They came and took me back, but Dr. B rushed in and told them not to put me under yet, she grabbed my hand and asked if I wanted to see the baby again.  I'll never forget the sight of our precious baby for the last time....Dr. B held my hand as we looked & again saw no heartbeat...I will be forever thankful to her for that last visual image of our little baby....I just wish "T" could have seen too.

I woke up in recovery & a couple hours later we were on our way home.  Leaving the hospital, getting in the car, & driving away without our baby was the worst feeling I've ever experienced in my entire life...as I cried Thomas told me that we can't think of it like that because that isn't what happened.  We didn't leave without our baby, but we set him/her free to go to heaven.  My husband is one amazing man & always knows what to do/what to say...he's exactly right...Baby Hardy is livin it up in the greatest of places!

This last week & a half has been incredibly difficult....hands down the toughest time of my life yet.  Losing our baby paired with another failed IVF cycle, no more insurance assistance, no frozen embryos, & no plan equals a level of frustration that is indescribable.  Our hearts are broken.  We are holding tight to our faith & know that God will pull us through...we still have hope and haven't given up to one day have our miracle in our arms for the very first time.

More Waiting...

Friday morning, we went in to Dr. B's for our first ultrasound.  I can't explain our emotions...we were incredibly excited, nervous, & a bit scared.  Right away Dr. B found the sac & a couple minutes later she spotted the yolk and a dot in the middle of the yolk which is "Baby Hardy"!  We were hoping to see a heartbeat, but unfortunately it wasn't quite visible.  Dr. B informed us that if all is well, it should start beating within the next few days & that for some women 6 weeks is just too early.  After, talking with her we got the impression that our odds are 50/50...she has seen it go both ways.  So, now we have to once again do what we do best....WAIT...oh how we are soooo tired of waiting.  This time, due to Dr. B going on vacation, we have to wait not one week, but TWO weeks for our next ultrasound.  In the mean time I have to keep on keeping on with my progesterone shots each night & my weekly acupuncture appointments with Dr. L.B.

Until then, we will continue to do our best at staying positive & most importantly continue to pray for our little Pea!

6 Week old "Baby Hardy"

Lower than Expected : (

Friday, I had my blood work done at 8:00 and the IVF coordinator called with the results just before 11:00.  She started the conversation out with, "We're a bit concerned...".  My heart sank.  She went on to say that my beta came back at 617, which is below normal...they were expecting it to be just over 1000.  Now, we have to once again WAIT for another week...I'm so over "waiting"!!!  We will go back Friday, June 24th for an ultrasound to see what's going on.  I can't explain how frustrating this entire infertility battle has been. I'm ready for us to catch a break & for something to go smoothly.

We are trying to stay only positive (easier said than done, but we are trying) as we PRAY, PRAY, PRAY for good news to come!   Please, Lord take care of our little pea & help him/her to keep growing!!!

Over the Moon!!!

On Friday I had my blood work drawn at 8:30, we then came home and waited...as we sat staring at the phone I kept thinking about how crazy it is that ONE phone call can make or break us...break our hearts, or change them forever!  At 11:30 the phone finally rang and we heard the greatest news!  I'll never forget how it felt to hear the one line we had been waiting for, for sooo long, "I have really good news...YOU'RE PREGNANT"!!!  We are over the moon excited & so thankful for this awesome gift God has blessed us with!  When I say excited...I'm talking REALLY EXCITED...can't sleep, smiling all the time kind of excited!!!!!

As of today we are 4 weeks, 4 days along...my beta back on Friday came back at 122 & Dr. B said that it should come close to doubling every two days.  We go back on Friday for more blood work to make sure it's climbing as it should.  T did the math and thinks it should be around 1,000.  If things look good Friday, Dr. B will schedule our first ultrasound for next week!  We're so stoked to see our little miracle or miracles!!!

If you are reading this post...you're in on the most "awesome" of secrets!  We have decided to keep our news on the down low, due to it being so incredibly early.  We want to wait a few more weeks/few more doctor appointments to tell the world our news, so please help us keep the secret!!!  We would also like to thank everyone for all of the prayers...this reminds us that GOD is so AWESOME, prayers are answered, & miracles do happen!!!

Here's how we told our families the news:



Here's a pic of our first ever POSITIVE!!!



5 Days!

We're praying hard here at the Hardy house!!! Five days left until we find out what God has in store for us for the next 9 months....holy cow...that's crazy to think about, but super exciting!  Gus is even praying for a little bro/sis...he said he's got lots of tricks to teach: sit, stay, shake, how to chew bones, dig holes, sneak snacks off the counter, & take naps!!!

Transfer Complete!

Tuesday was an all around good day!  I began the morning with Dr. L.B. for pre-transfer acupuncture.  It went well...I left feeling relaxed & ready for transfer.  Dr. L.B. is always contagiously positive no matter what the circumstances/odds might be...so it was a good place to start the day considering we hadn't received an update since Monday morning when they had dropped in grade.  Positiveness was key!

We headed to Dr. B's just before 2:00.  She took us back to her office to discuss everything before the transfer.  She first informed us that one of the embryos had stepped up in grade to a 4A & the other was a 3B...both great grades to stick for the long haul (I felt a bit of weight drop from my shoulders...they did it...they stayed strong in time for transfer).  Dr. B then discussed with us how nervous she was too this weekend...she even said that on Sunday, she was to nervous to check on their grades & decided not to call Dr. T for the update, but rather wait until Monday morning when she arrived at the clinic.  She said that she was so excited when we got 15 eggs, but when only 2 fertilized the excitement faded & the nerves set in.  She expressed that this affirms that there is something about T's sperm & my eggs coming together...somethings just not working, but, once they do connect they create strong embryo's.  Dr. B was very hopeful & told me she would have her fingers & toes crossed, & be praying for a positive!

Next, they took me back to the O.R. for the transfer.  Once, again the full bladder was a killer!  Think of having a completely full bladder and then having someone push hard on it with the ultra-sound....all while spread eagle in stirrups...not a good combination!  Dr. B was really excited about the transfer, she kept telling me how perfectly smooth it went! She said, that we have given them the best of chances....good graded embryos paired with a smooth transfer. 

So, now we wait, wait, wait!  This is by far the toughest part of the entire IVF process.  We wait for my beta test day to come (10 days) and pray that both lil' peas are attaching and holding tight!

Our two super cute Pea's!!!

Embryo Update #4

Today's update arrived and left us feeling a bit more nervous than before...she informed us that both of our lil' Peas are now grade 3 embryo's.  We were so hoping that they would hold steady as grade 4's until transfer.  So, now they have until 2:00 tomorrow afternoon to hold steady as 3's or to move back up to 4's...we are confidant that they can do it!!!  Hardy & I are trying to stay super positive as we pray for our lil' ones to grow, grow, grow!!!  We also have been praying for Dr. B....she's got the biggest, most intricate job of all tomorrow...transferring them back to me. 

Tomorrow at 8:15 am I will go see Dr. L.B for pre-transfer acupuncture, Dr. B for transfer at 2:00 & then back to Dr. L.B. for post-transfer acupuncture.  Fingers & toes crossed  for tomorrow to be a "Great" day! 

Lord, please be with our tiny peas...they need your miraculous touch now more than ever! 

Embryo Update #3

Good News once again!!!  As soon as church ended we rushed to the car to get our update.  Both babies are still grade 4's!!!  They are most definitely staying strong and growing leaps and bounds each day.  Hardy read that as of today they are now in the 8 cell stage.  Tomorrow, they should jump to 16 cell stage & then on to 32 cell blasts just in time for transfer.  Fingers crossed for another great update tomorrow! 

Embryo Update #2

Wow, was yesterday a long day!  It felt like eternity before hearing our next update.  We finally got our message this morning right before 11:00.  GREAT NEWS thanks to all the prayers, as of today, both babies are grade 4's!!!  They grade them on a scale ranging from 1 to 4...a 4 is the top grade an embryo can receive which means it is forming awesomely without any fragmentation. 

Hardy and I are so happy for both of them, but continue to pray for their healthy development.  Our two lil' Peas will be in incubators until Tuesday.  Dr. B decided to go ahead and wait for the 5 day transfer rather than a 3 day.  This means that we have to make it through two more days of morning updates...so nerve racking, but ultimately worth every second if it's best for them! 

As we wait we continue to think positive and to pray, pray, pray!

Embryo Update #1

It's amazing how fast something so good can pull a 160.  Yesterdays greatness sure did fade fast.  This morning our update was anything, but great....of all 15 eggs, only 2 fertilized...looks like our odds are back to well below average, just like last time & to top it off we're left with no hopes of a back-up plan....we're all in & scared to death.  All we can do is pray that God grants our two little embryo's a fighting chance to make it...please God help them to stay strong.

Egg Retrieval Complete!

I would have updated yesterday, but I was kinda out of it...who knows what I would have typed!  Yesterday, we met with the anaesthesiologist and then they took me back to the O.R. around 10:00am.  The next thing I remember didn't occur until around 1:00.  The actual retrieval only took Dr. B a half hour, but for some reason I had trouble waking up in recovery.  Hardy told me that I wouldn't talk or open my eyes & I was shaking & my eyes went blood shot.  Dr. C (anaesthesiologist) & Dr. B were trying to figure out what was going on.  Thomas said they began putting meds through my I.V. to help reverse the other meds, & they gave me sugars thinking it was my blood sugar.  Hardy, said at one point he began to get a little bit scared even.  But thank goodness, two hours later I began to come to...and this is when I heard the GREAT news!!!  You ready for it....here it is....FIFTEEN EGGS!!!  Dr. B rocked my world when she told me 15.  She was super excited and even said that there must of been an Angel helping her in the O.R.!!!

Dr. B also informed us that my estrogen levels were quite high, so she gave me a prescription for a med that will help with OHSS (ovarian hyper-stimulation syndrome). I guess when you put 15 eggs in a house that usually holds 1 it can cause a little mess. Hopefully, the meds work out & fix the problem.  So, that ups my pill count to four prescriptions + Dr. L.B.'s meds + the infamous PROGESTERONE shots started last night...oh how I didn't miss those ginormous needles in my rear!!!  But, it's all worth it for "Baby Hardy"!

We arrived home from the fertility center around 3:00 and Dr. B called to check on me at 4:00.  She wanted to make sure I was doing ok after the crazy weird recovery.  She said that it was very, very rare & she's still not sure what caused me to struggle so much.  She also told me that of the 15 eggs, she already knew that 8 were mature enough to have a chance at fertilization...so, we're down to 8.  She said she's excited to see how many fertilize over night!!!  Props to Dr. B today...she was over the top helpful & it was very nice of her to call and check up on me.

So, just a recap:
IVF egg retrieval #1: 5 eggs retrieved, 4/5 mature, 2 fertilized
IVF egg retrieval #2: 15 eggs retrieved, 8/15 mature, (fingers crossed for 8 to fertilize)

So, now the waiting continues...this is the toughest part...knowing our lil' peas are in incubators and we have no clue how they are doing until they call us between 10:00 & 11:00 each morning with an update. All we can do is think positive, hope the time passes quickly, & pray, pray,pray for good news!

Waiting to be taken back to the O.R.

Once again, I was forced to sport the "sexy" grippy socks & hair net!

Hardy, modeling the net!

In recovery, out for the count!

Day 9 Stim Update

Well, things are moving along...we're getting more & more nervous/excited!  This morning my u/s showed that my follicles are very close to being ready for retrieval.  The IVF coordinator called my PRN line to tell us to TRIGGER tonight at 12:30 (looks like Hardy & I will be up late & all of my Dr. siblings must keep their phones close just in case we need a lil' help)!  Retrieval is also set for Thursday morning at 9:45.  So, now we pray for loads of eggs!!!  Holy Cow....I'm excited!!! Hoping for a better egg count when I wake up in recovery....no repeats of last cycle...please, no repeats!

Day 8 Stim Update

I went in this morning for yet another monitoring u/s paired with blood work.  The follicles are getting bigger and much harder to be measured due to being all jammed in to such a tiny space.  I watched the u/s screen until I noticed a good three that were ginormous in size compared to the others....she told me those will probably be "let go" in order to save the rest....at that I turned my head and quit asking questions, so I'm not sure how many more there were, or exact sizes.  The large ones I saw were right around 23mm.  I chose to look away, hoping that it would be easier to swallow...I knew it would kill me to see more that wouldn't make it to retrieval.  I pray that those three were it...no more.

My PRN message said to continue with the same shots, just a different p.m. dosage & to return tomorrow morning for more blood work & another u/s.  I'll try my best not to look away, for the sake of  a better update...no promises, but I'll give it my best! 

Day 5 Stim Update

We went to see Dr. B yesterday morning for our first monitoring u/s & blood work.  My blood work came back good and the u/s showed a much better result than IVF cycle #1.  I had 9 follicles on the left & 6-7 on the right.  Apparently my left ovary listened to my threatening pep-talk...I most definitely put it's life on the line this round...haha...give me some good follicles or REMOVAL!  The only part that wasn't the best was the size of the follicles.  They were once again sporadic in size...ranging from 4-5mm all the way to 18mm...we're hoping that works it's self out before retrieval.

The IVF coordinator left a message on my PRN line informing us to start Ganirelix shots immediately, & to keep administering the same meds/dosages until Monday when we return for our next u/s & blood work. 

Current Meds:
Follistim Shot 200iu (a.m.)
Ganirelix Shot (a.m.)
Dexamethason (a.m.)
Dual Pre-Natal
Folic Acid
Menopur 150iu (p.m.)
Dr. L.B fertility meds

My stomach is again beginning to look like "bruise" central & I feel about like the "Michelin Man" when it comes to bloatedness (if that's even a word), but it's all worth it for "Baby Hardy"!!!  Hardy & I are staying positive and looking forward to Monday's update!

P.S.  My last day of teaching for the year was also yesterday....hello SUMMER BREAK!

Let it Begin...Again...Round #2!

Mother Teresa once said, "I know God will not give me anything I can't handle.  I just wish he didn't trust me so much".  I'm sure of it that her and I could have been the best of friends...too bad she couldn't have lived a few more decades.  I've thought of her quote a lot lately...thanks Mother Teresa for helping a "friend" out...I owe ya one!

I know, I know....it's been a few weeks since my last post, but I've been busy...VERY BUSY!  Finishing up the school year, golf, & doctors appointments have consumed the better part of my time, so here's the scoop on my life:

Hardy and I struggled to make our decision about what to do next with our infertility nightmare.  We layed it all on the table: IVF round #2 with same RE, IVF round #2 with new RE, acupuncture/herbs, or nothing.  We talked out the pros/cons of each option & quickly decided that prior to making a definite decision...we wanted to first get a second opinion with a different RE.  We got an appointment with Dr. R in OKC.  He was "hands down" awesome.  We could tell right away that he was dedicated and completely passionate about his job.  He looked over my records and talked with us about options.  He first confirmed that he recommended another round of IVF & second that he would use follistim and menopur (same as Dr. B).  The only component that he would do differently than Dr. B was Lupron instead of Ganirelex. 

We came home from OKC and again went over our options.  Although, we both liked Dr. R a lot...financially he was going to cost a considerable amount more than staying with Dr. B.  This included cost of treatment paired with multiple 2 hour trips to OKC & hotel stays.  We decided the best option for us at this time is to stay with Dr. B.  It's nice to know that we have Dr. R as a great back-up plan (fingers crossed that we won't need it).  Once, we decided to stay with Dr. B we then had to decide if we wanted to start IVF #2 right away or if we should give acupuncture/herbs more time.  Due to my school year time frame, we decided to go with IVF....the cycle starts just as summer begins...meaning I won't have to worry about missing school (I'm running out of sick days).

So, now that your caught up on our decision making process...I'll fill ya in on all the details.  I went in for my baseline u/s & blood work on May 12th.  I was cyst free and my levels were good to go for the cycle.  We start stim shots tomorrow, May 16th.  This time she put me on much higher dosages of follistim in the a.m & menopur in the p.m.  (This should be interesting for the hormones...poor Thomas!)  We then go in on Friday, May 20th for our first monitoring u/s & blood work to see follicle growth...positive thinking for LOTS of follicles on both sides!!!  I have been and will continue to see Dr. L.B. once a week for acupuncture and I am also taking fertility meds through her. Her and I were talking last week about round #2...we're hoping that the herbal drugs/acupuncture will only increase our odds for success.

Are we scared, nervous, anxious?  Most definitely...more than ever!  But on the other hand we are hopeful & as Mother Teresa said it best...we know that God won't give us what we can't handle, so we will keep our faith in God's plan for us...because through the good times and the tough times, we trust that he knows what's best for us.

So...here goes...wish us luck and lots of prayers!!!